Popular harpist and content creator Emily Hopkins revealed her recent struggle with depression and a diagnosis of complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD) in a vulnerable video update.
Hopkins, known for her experimental music gear reviews and harp performances, explained that her mental health declined significantly following the death of her close friend Kathy in late 2024.
The musician shared that she faced periods of isolation, increased alcohol consumption, and physical exhaustion while trying to maintain her professional commitments.
Complex PTSD is a mental health condition typically resulting from long-term trauma, often occurring during childhood.
Hopkins connected her diagnosis to the experience of losing her younger brother, George, who suffered from a rare genetic disease and passed away at age seven.
She noted that symptoms of the disorder can include a persistent negative self-image, making it difficult to maintain positive lifestyle choices or personal hygiene.
The creator detailed a multi-step recovery process that began with seeking professional psychiatric help. She emphasized that her recovery did not stem from drastic changes but rather from small, sustainable habits implemented over several months.
These included structured meal planning and a commitment to daily physical movement, even when her motivation was low.
Hopkins also addressed her decision to begin taking a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI), a type of antidepressant medication that helps increase levels of serotonin in the brain.
She admitted to initial feelings of embarrassment and a fear of physical side effects, such as hand tremors, which could have ended her career as a professional harpist.
However, she reported that the medication provided a stable foundation that allowed her other healthy habits to be more effective.
The musician also touched upon recent changes to her physical appearance, including the removal of her signature nose ring, which had sparked speculation among her audience.
She clarified that the change was a personal preference rather than a sign of a “traditional” lifestyle shift, as some viewers had theorized.
To mark this transition, Hopkins has placed her original nose ring up for auction, with proceeds intended to support her ongoing work.
With over 700K subscribers on YouTube, Hopkins has built a dedicated following through her unique niche of running traditional harps through heavy metal guitar pedals and synthesizers.
She continues to host regular live streams on the platform three times a week, citing the schedule as a vital tool for maintaining consistency in her life.
Emily Hopkins concluded by encouraging her viewers to focus on a gallery of trying rather than a museum of failure when navigating their own mental health challenges.
